“He was an individual. Not just another sheep among the herd like most people. He was on the outside and just TOO different. He could never fit in and blend with the herd. Trying only makes you stand out that much further. A loner, renegade, a mixed up individual who saw life as it was and decided not to go along. He’d felt enough pain, and would live as he felt best, for him”.
.That’s how I’ve felt and how I still feel. I just never realized I was that/this way really until recently. Believe me, the knowledge I gained came at a price. A heavy price. I look to other loners as kindred spirit’s. We share a lot of commonalities but, even though i may have once felt as though I were dead, I am alive, and rather than idiolize the past and it’s glories, it’s mistakes, I prefer to look towards the future as guide, an inspiration, and in some ways(A LOT of ways), what NOT to do. Even though I’ll probably do it anyway. That’s because I am selfish, and stubborn and I usually do whatever the hell I want anyhow. I write for many reasons. A few key reasons:
Thereputic- self analysis has been a key factor in my sitting here, sane, writing this.
-knowledge of oneself. and others by learning of myself- pro’s &con’s
-Enjoyment. It’s a release, it’s enjoyable and a healthy outlet. Why not!?
Documenting my life, my progress while i transition to manhood. My travels and all else.
At some poin in the future, ay write a book. These pages here may be a learning curve as well as play an important part in the process of a book. Maybe……
I do hope you’ll check out my post here and leave some word’s. ANY word’s. I ONLY ask for common sense, dignity, and respect. With some consideration for other’s and the damage that may be caused by insensitive, crass and ignorant words thoughtlessly added to the comments. R.E.S.P.E.C.T. and EQUALITY. What should be the foundations of our society . Not money as God, and cruelty. Enjoy!
-Scotty L. Munsey J.R.